i found you :)

2006-11-07T07:30:00.000-08:00

doooo not work and study together...u will feel very very lethargic....tts my advice~:) nth much lately...juz work and study...stress...cya

2006-10-07T19:33:00.000-07:00

hahaz....hands up if u agree....i see all raising hands...ur are good....love u all~

2006-10-04T20:54:00.000-07:00

i dun understand but i haf to.....i dun noe why...but i haf to....im juz a hometown kid....i wouldnt let a bean spill out anymore...i wasnt like tt....but i haf to accept tt im like tt...maybe..becoz..my heart is filled....i'll try to make it known...

hoping for e best!~

2006-10-02T09:50:00.000-07:00

hmmx..hope it isnt anything bad...interview on wed..hope i can make e fitness swim and get e job. genting's coming...it MUZ be fun...and sch's reopeningz... HMM...i tink it will be a big change....But i'll be fine with it...:)

2006-09-26T11:52:00.000-07:00

im officially outta DRP...donno its a happy or sad ting....went to bank in cheaque be4 gg shopingz. She bought lotsa stuff....and a jacket and undies for me. e whole day was pleasant, fun until e last part of e day. Im sorry. Im nt KK anymore...

its been a lnog time

2006-09-11T09:24:00.001-07:00

its been a long time since i feel like this..i donno hw to describe this feeling but its horrible..
What's wrong? I don't feel what i used to feel. Im feeling blank..very blank.Sometimes, i could just stare at e god damn ceiling of my room and wander abt in my mind.I JUZ CANT SLP. I don't know what's troubling me.I don't feel my presence is any impt to anyone. Well, sometimes i juz don;t feel appreciated.
When im on e way home , im beggining to wonder what is it like if im dead. Im like Whao...i would get all e attention i wanted. But, i would be forgotten afta a few mth. Its like so bo hua..u exchange ur life with attn only for a few mths. Yea.

Well, everyone..let me emphasise.. Im ok.(some might think wth. WHO cares abt u) hahaz. alright.its juz some of my thoughts recently. no worries for me.

its been a lnog time

2006-09-11T09:24:00.000-07:00

its been a long time

2006-09-11T09:23:00.000-07:00

siao zhar bor

2006-06-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

i'll tell u what this girl say to me. This is how it goes. I went for my training and happened to see this irritating female lifeguard in e same training wif me. And not long after, She scolded me saying, "Don't put ur hand on e lane rope la SHEN JING BING." Whoo~ im stunt. I dunch understand why she cant tok politely. But well, its ok i let it passed.
And i tink her "ba zi bu he" wif me and another thing happened. We were doing a relay and i would plunge when my team mate touches e wall. So when i plunge, this 2pid girl was juz beside me. And i swear i maintain a distance frm her. Afta e ting, she said to me angrily, " u Si ah Gua,u noe its very dangerous! what if u happen to hit me? theres no life guard there u noe? " whoa! e si ah gua irritated me. So i sae sth like, i din kenna u right? and she shut up straight and look else where.
So e next training event starts. i donno what to do for e event so i asked johnathan abt it. She suddenly came up frm behind and POLITELY tell me what to do for e event. I was stunt! Coz im showing a face to her already afta e si ah gua thing. Oh well, i wonder what had gone wrong in her. Shes e first crazy creature ive seen in my whole entire life. Oh my lord.

2006-05-20T11:30:00.000-07:00

dun understand eh...nwadays keep becoming like tt...whoa...issit my temper haf gone wrong or issit time for me to visit a speech and drama course? i expressed hw i feel and u thot it was at u...no it isnt!~ im juz trying to express myself...maybe in a wrong way? might be! sometimes..i would juz be lost of words in explaining to u...fearing what i sae might make u LL which i wasnt intending to~...

haiz...donno ehx...bad weeks for me though...was hoping everything would be smoother afta a little quarrel....but it was juz smooth for 1 or 2 days before e next comes....what had happened? mm... its juz so hurting la...its likez...ur living in ur beautiful dream and suddenly pok~!~ it comes again... oh...how shld i present what i feel...hw shld i handle it...hw? mm...i'll find it out...coz nw...i realli donno hw to handle it correctly...im always tackling it wrnogly...steering e thing into another direction making u disappointed and more hot headed...im wondering what i shld do nw..coz in e past..i used to accept everything and juz let it passed..but i know tt shldnt be e wayz as e mater will be left unsolved....so nw, i tried to argue back and sae out whats in my head...it didnt turn out good either..its like..even worse? mm...how? donno ehz...i tink im juz nt tt wonderful eh...but im working at it ehx...pls guide me along ar~...coz im realli very insensitive..

i tink i dunch get it? mm......mm..i shall go and analyse it and see what i shld do to make it better...i juz wan a better way of communicating and not ending up like tt..i realli dunch like this feeling...i know u dunch like it too...

2006-04-07T09:00:00.000-07:00

whee~~went to gf house to ton. First time in my life. Went there to ton because theres work e next day and it is very very very early. Have to wake up ard 6. Can u imagine?! okx..Lifesaving these days are getting tougher and tougher. Maybe im e one who is always lazy to move my bone and im e only one who find it shiong? hehehehe...i donno~! Getting busier and busier. Can't imagine my life when i started school. My dad ask me to sign up for e swimming instructor course after i took my lifesaving cert~!~ wth~! i have cCA..instructor course and sch~! oh..save me!~ cant i juz spare more time wif my gf? i have already spent all e mon wed and fri away~! im sorry trix :( but u noe i will always like to spend my time wif u if i have it~ :) signing off~ gaming then slp already...morning working again. Hope it goes well~! :)

how to be a good bf?

2006-03-17T08:46:00.000-08:00

went to some wedding dinner...ate till i feel like a pig and im back. im juz wondering hw shld i be a good bf nw...am i doing enuff for my gf? am i doing e necessary? do i realli understand her ? well..i donno hw to ans all these qn coz im juz so disappointed in myself at times...sometimes i tink my crappy personality can help me find topic always and start up e quiet mood between us...but soemtimes i juz tink tt my crappy self juz harms me...coz maybe..im juz nt so sensitive to hw she feels...hw shld i sae...well..heres an example..hw will u feel if someone jokes wif u when u r already pek cek...obviously...even more pek cek..well...i underlooked that...and i feel so bad nw...its like...i juz wanna keep her happy and look everyone...what haf i done.....sometimes i juz wished that my eng ish juz tt perfect so everyone wunch misunderstand wad im trying to sae...sometimes direct translation from chinese senteces to english ones are quite offensive..well..what i wanted to sae was..i thank u for stoning there...trying so hard to past time till e time im back home..i realli appreciate tt...and im sorry for keeping u waiting and waiting again...well...juz saying loving u and doing nothing means nothingz...but i hope u will see my effort in trying to be ur perfect and ideal one although perfect seems impossible..i'll juz try to work towards it...pls be patience wif me and give me somemore time k?im very sorry to be that ignorant and insensitive...i will be better in e future...pls gimme all ur trust~ :)

blading

2006-03-13T08:35:00.000-08:00

went to ECP wif gf today to blade...ah...din noe i was rusty in blading until today...nearly fall down alot of times...but to some...it might juz be a blade stunt...hahahaz...as u all noe...im juz so "si ai mian zi" so i got this mentality of gek pro...i would imitate e style of e ppl who know hw to blade...heeheehee..anywayz..tt did me alot of help...something tt surprised me was tt trixie knows hw to blade quite well...well at least shes better than me :P ahaha...alright...afta blading, went to her house to cook maggie mee for our dinner...its e first time i cook maggie mee for other ppl...mm...luckily...i didnt screwed up and it turn out okay~ :P hahaz...sorry trix...gotta apologise to ur stomach...wahhaa...alright...tt makes my wonderful day wif her ard ~:)

2005-11-26T20:14:00.000-08:00

hmmx~whoo..its been a month since i updated.Alrights,this is hw my life goes for this monthz.
New semester have started n im feeling e great stress.Coz i haf a alot of genius beside me.2 peeps wif 4As.Can u imaginez?!.Others r all way above me..Hw m i going to fight my place in the class n...nt to mention..my course...
well..although im feeling e stress,but im still slackingz.Maybe its because im using game to destress.NaH NaH,well i guess i just have to cope with the stress without games man.
About my personal life, i didin't realli stop basketball.Still plays every weekend if theres people playing ~:) well, realli enjoyed playing cause its a way tt i can destress myself.
Alrights.TtS hw my life goes..which is very brief..will try to update soon ~::) cya

2005-10-08T11:05:00.000-07:00

hmmx...went to trix's hoz for mahjong todayz..ah..i love e feeling when time passes so fast...won abt $10...so...againz...today's expenses were like...covered...coz we went to pool afta tt n we had our dinner at her hoz...yumz...e food ish god liked ar...damn nice...alrights..tts all

2005-10-06T14:02:00.000-07:00

ah..donno whyz ar...nwadays will tend to show tmper mroe....tink haf to upgrade abit ler...likez..when keeping e temper...act as if nth happens...ahhz..tts it..mmm...sometimes ar...hate seeing ppl busy wif stuff...coz...im like so bored without anything on hand ar..mmx..yeapx...

2005-09-30T22:17:00.000-07:00

went bball today...played...like shit...demoralising sia...deprove damn lots ar...shld i buck it up..mm..mm...

2005-09-29T23:27:00.000-07:00

hmmx.went to mahjong at trix's hoz...won abt $10 ba..if i din calculate wrongly..so..today's expenses sorta likez..covered..okx...i tink i noe wad to do ler..wahahaz......

2005-09-29T02:55:00.000-07:00

hmmx...went trix's hoz for mahjongz..well...won abt $5 todayz...yeapx...afta playingz...we went for sakae buffet...then pool then lan...hmmx..yeapx..tts all ba

2005-09-26T23:03:00.000-07:00

hmmx...was feeling very sianx recently...kept tinking abt her..wad ish it tts keeping us a distance...tt i reali dunch noez..im still wonderingz..i thot we were going smoothly...well..if i could turn back e timez..i would haf told u everything i realli had in my mind...mm..juz wish tt...everything will be back to e happy times againz..if i were to let u noez...i would wan u to noe tt...i wan u

2005-08-25T08:50:00.000-07:00

whoo...havent been blogging for quite a long timez...poly life ish great...espicailly tt grp of friens...:) pooled wif them..ball wif them..study wif them..crap wif them..all...eveyrthing...enjoyed being wif themz....mmx...wonder wad happened to me todayz...nearly lost it..wahhahaa...donno why osoz..tink i realli haf to control temper n stuffs againz..tts allz

2005-05-19T23:48:00.000-07:00

hmmx..ok...i started my day...attending e orientation in sch...did some dance...some 2pid cheering n stuff...well..gotta noe my class a little...afta tt..i lied n i got off e grp n went to meet KL for pools...ate n went home...well..everythings going right when e ass...went into e room n full blasted e radio in his room when im toking on phone...n my dad...came in...blamed me for toking on phone...n he said tt its becoz i tok too loud...tts y hes blasting his radio...why cant they give a second thot n see whos toking louder on phone..i tink i shall record it when e ass toks on phone in future...wtf..i hate this...

2005-05-09T23:09:00.000-07:00

hmmx..haha went traiingz..then as expected..wasnt selected...i knew im nt good enuff frm start ler...nt wen in full court...wahhaaha...ok...i felt quite pissed...neh neh..maybe im blind la..wtf...ah nvm

2005-05-05T12:50:00.000-07:00

hmm..this ish a abandoned blog...its been a long time since i updated it...okz..theres ups n downs as time passes...for instance...bballz...mm...i feel tt i can do more...but im juz nt doing it right n enuff...ok...i tink im through wif some tinkings n im working on it..wondering whether theres still punggol team next yr nots...hahaz....it seems like..theres no one else for next yr...mmm...:P

having trainingz todayz..hope god wunch let us down by letting down e tank of water frm e sky lata ~:P yea...let us trainz...we r coming to e competitionz...:)thanks god ~:P

2005-03-26T23:26:00.000-08:00

long time no update ler..tink coz of work then i tired ler ba..haha but theres someone there to take care of me ler.wahaha..lalalaz...so..yea lo...mmm..went for pool n makan wif kailong they all todayz...hmmx...then yea lo...all day long was msging her..heeheee...u pig...dunch spy hor...btu anywayz...juz wanna let u noe tt...u r e happiness of mine lo~ haha...:)

2005-03-14T20:19:00.000-08:00

went out wif LT to watch son the mask...nt a bad show..then went for pool n i return to cc for trainingzx....at least i tink im improving by a little bit...donno..juz noe i haf to work harder...

2005-03-13T12:16:00.000-08:00

went to pub wif them n drank some beer...kaoz..i still hate beer...hmmx..nvmz...ton thru e night...saw ah guas...saw alot of tings...yea lo...donno wad to describe n donno hw to larhx..juz like tt loz..

hmm..was tinkking abt lotsa tings..i mena likez...wad the hellz...why do ppl always tink im joking when im expressing sth serious or expressing my anger...hahaz..nvm larhx...:)

2005-03-10T23:49:00.000-08:00

whoo.. we won all e half court.i do haf a diff feeling while playing full courts...im juz afraid of e ball..totally no confi..but..i will build it up

2005-03-08T23:37:00.000-08:00

whoo~played bball todayz...till night then play one on one...quite fun...but getting injuries n cuts everywhere ler..haha nvm...at least i enjoyed

2005-03-08T00:15:00.000-08:00

hmm...went for bball...today was ok...at least i can do wad i wanz..wahahhaz..ok...walked home wif cedric n chat tings abt relationshipz...i tink i went thru stuffs tt he went thruz...okz..called her...hahaz..donno...haf some kinda bad feelingz tt shes still outside wif a guy i tink..well...wadeva...none of my prob..im nt related to her anywayz...i mean..nt anymroe..awhahaha.....hahaz..hmmx..yaez...tt day i happened to watch tv n saw some sad stuff..ok...this girl...slap e guy during e pri sch dayz..n she felt guilty abt it...till when she grew upz...but when she went looking for e guy...e guy was dead...which was abt 10+ yrs afta she slap her...she wanted to apologise...but no more chance...i gt a conclusion frm tt part...e conclusion ishz..juz sae everything tt u haf in ur heart out be4 its too late..someitmes...i dunch tink tts e right wayz...cause...in some times...u may get hurt...hahaz..

sometimes..i realli longed for a girl who cares abt mez...make me feel hapyp when im on e phone wif her...but...i tink i lost tt girl..n..even if theres luck...i dunch tink i can find one of e same ler.....chat till late midnights...mmm...okx..anywayz...to u guys reading this...nv ever go into love too muchz..coz if u do so...e one ending hurt ish uz...im nt sure whether u may agree wif me on this ntz...but...tts wad i tinkz..n..well..wish u ppl who r in a relationshipz..long lasting...n those who haf feelings for a person...juz pick up ur courage n tell them be4 its too late...hahaz..:)

2005-03-04T13:20:00.000-08:00

hmmx...went for lunch wif mcken...n i submitted e JAE application alreadyz...i wanted to change..so im still considering nw...haz...hmmx..hahaha saw her nick...so i tink she gt a new guy ler..or she haf a crush on this guy ler ~:P hmmx...anyway...hopex u get on wif life happily...:)....

cant concentrate when e lights r gonna off ..i donno whyz..hahaha lost myself.juz anyhow qie..anyhow shoot..donno wad im doingz...haiz...im lousy aint i...im foreva nt succeeding in anything..hahahahahaz...

2005-03-02T09:24:00.000-08:00

hmm..i live in this world realli for a reason?? y m i born wif this kinda life...a fucking selfish broz...who nv fails to piss me off at homez...well...fuck him...ccbz...i realli cant wait to see him go into army lo...well...if he changes afta army...tt might be alright...but what if he dunch change...wtf lo...mm...wadevas..e day for him to go in...ish e happiest day in my life..

hmmx...saw this n tt...whoo...hahaz...life's like tt

2005-02-25T20:28:00.000-08:00

hmmx..yawnz...ppl wif changes...some gd...while others towards e ignorant side...hate tt manx...wadeva..tts life~ :)

2005-02-21T23:27:00.000-08:00

hai..he became worse as each day goes by..he treats himself as a king nw in his hoz..wad e hellz..i tink ish my parents fault..my parents always give in when he goes e hard wayz...damnz...hes spoilt..selfish...mad...fuck him manz...why cant i haf a decent broz..liew...fuck...i reali raelli hope he can go to e army fast...disappear be4 me...damn him manx...sometimes i cant stand e sight of him scolding my parents..wadeva...n...he always tinks tt hes older n climb over me..._|_ manz...i give in coz i dunwan my parents to feel disappointed n sad...DAMN!~ i donno when i will release all my anger on him n tell him tt...frm tt day when i lay a punch on him...i no longer treat him as my bro...

2005-02-19T23:25:00.000-08:00

whoo!~...worked wif cann at e fair toadyz....she treat me eat fries...n ice cream...hmm helen treat me eat tea egg...wendy promise to buy me S.H.E de new album in future n treat me eat sushi...awhzhhaahahaz...wadeva larhx...hmmx...haf fun working there...ppl there r caring n fun manz...whee...lucky me to haf transfered therez...then noe ler another god mum...wahahhaz...:P hmmx...well...legs r still tired afta yest de full corut...kaoz..damn fun nor..long time no pia till like tt ler...whee~ :)

2005-02-14T22:01:00.000-08:00

hmm...saw mx yest...juz exchange eyesight..din even wave..wahaha wadeva larhx...used to it...hmmx..yea..today de day at work sux...do till damn pek chek...like...mountains of stuff...wadeva larhx...once in a while its ok...if its everydayz..i would end up in woodbridge long ago....eve...gave me e whole section of stationary..n its likez...in a mess...n i haf to do it within a time range be4 i go homez..liewz...sianx right...then afta tt..i saw e gay againz...nb..i pretend tt i din see him loz...wahahahaz...eeww..yeapx..

went to arcade wif baboon n mcken afta work...n they make me wait for ard 20mins..idiot mcken lo...prepare like doing make up...sianx ~:P..oso gd larhx..waste time like tt.....

anwyayz...saw couples ard...even when im workingz...i swear..im neither envying nor jealous...juz tt...so eeww...hate e sight of them hugging..yucksz..._|_...wahahhahaz...eew..hw come im so violent...wahhaz...wadeva...anwyayz...come to tink of it..its 1 yr lo..anniversary...wahahahz

2005-02-11T21:51:00.000-08:00

mm..back frm msia...enjoyed e trip there...haha..went out wif my uncle to see chio bu...eat supper...n sutff...oh yea...played wif firecrackers...n enjoying e fireworks tt ppl in e village set up...whee...oh..yeapx...e trip ended wif us enjoying e day at e hot springz...yea n set off for home~ :)

2005-02-03T23:03:00.000-08:00

WTF...i cant imagine myself doing tt...haiz..i've change...nt e same old mez...i wanna be e old self.. where shld i start...i haf no idea abt wad i amz...damnz...ish there realli a purpose for me in my life? damn damn damnz..DAMN..i nid a break...pls..even though i got this trouble into me coz of myself...DAMN...I REALLI DO NID A BREAK...maybe...when im in msia...its e time for me tink throughly abt e tings i shld do...thx for e trip back dad...haiz...

2005-01-31T01:20:00.000-08:00

damn...wad happened to me...i said sth tt i shldnt to her...arg...anywayz...my day starts by having breakfast wif mcken...feeling tired...fall aslp n went for work afta tt..haha tts all

2005-01-28T23:28:00.000-08:00

sian...work...hahaz...day at work sux...went hmoe...tt siao kia kp me for nth.._|_...wad did i do to deserve all this...nvm...i donno why...but gt this kns de feelingz...i realli dunwan tt feeling to live in me...nvmz...will physco myself..

2005-01-26T20:22:00.000-08:00

ok...e day begin wif work...mmm...then till noon...went for e break...ate for 1/2 hr n slept for 40mins...im late for 10mins...haha heng eve donno....arbo jia lat...ning sih din wake me up...haha then afta tt went to e fair to relive eve...but it sucks...its warm there plus...alot of ppl...damn it sia...but nvm...then...i tink e ice lemon tee de girl was toking abt me ler...haha so dunch wanna pua stunt liaox...mm...then went to food court...saw this girl was staring at me...afta i walk off...she n her frien was looking at me...i was like ??? then my day ended

2005-01-23T23:15:00.000-08:00

hmmx...haf a fun day today playing bballz...hmm but my leg ish nt hafing fun...yea...tts all

2005-01-21T23:52:00.000-08:00

ok...e day begin wif work..during work...eve came...she scolded me as usual behind me larhx..si bei sianx...wanna scold dunwan tell me in e face...someomre...wanna ask me to do sth oso need to go thru another staff...nb..wad the hell lo...so fuck up sia...nnb...anywayz...i'll be waiting for e troubles tt she will create for me...

anwyayz..afta work..went to Kbox..went to gather wif gori be4 he goes to army...well..had quite a fun day there ba...awhahahha..wadeva..

2005-01-19T22:00:00.000-08:00

im god damn tired...but who cares...wahahahaz...i will keep myself awake till e day im gonna die...been slping for like ard 6hrs a dayz...n e mentality n physcially energy i used...always exceed e amt i gained frm slping..awhahaha..wadeva...mmx...realised sthz...cherish be4 regretting...yeaz...ahahah..anywayz...tml's gonna work..oh yea...EVE no MC..yea~!..dunch like to work wif her...always give bao gong de face..sian siaz...oh yea...n friens...who happen to see this...pls tag at e tagboard if u tink tt im a true frien of urs~ wahaha

2005-01-18T23:26:00.000-08:00

mm...watched kungfu todayz...its lame...nt nice...mm...haiz...bad day too..shall nt mention here wahaha

2005-01-17T22:55:00.000-08:00

i wish i wish i wish...to start a relationship wif u...wahahahhaz..haiz..dunch tink canz..wahah...anywayz..went for a hair cut...tt stylist there ish a total pro...ahha she imagine hw u will looked like be4 she cut it...whoohoo~...anwyayz..afta tt went for ttrainingz..ahah im sloapz..wadeva...dunch tink i can excel in bball...wadeva..wahhahaha

2005-01-16T22:53:00.000-08:00

went to army market wif mcken n baboonz..on e wayz...chatted wif ermx...u noe hu larhx :P hmmx...long time no chat wif her for tt long ler.anywayz...felt quite happy chatting wif her...ahha hmmx..reached there n bought 2 t-shirts...n i din oe tt it was tt small...damn manz...then afta tt...travelled to far east plaza n bought a collar tee there...i tink it was nice lo...hahaz...but...its expensive..anywayz..its worth it...

went down to cc afta tt...n played a few half court games...liewz..was like sucking at ball ler...nvm..i suck at it long ago...anwyayz...quite an enjoyable dayz...

2005-01-14T23:29:00.000-08:00

ohh..went to work...work wif huiling againz..but last day lo...wahahhaa...whooo...was laming e whole day in e shop till it close...then e supervisor...cann...send me home...song~ wahaha tts e dazy

2005-01-13T23:38:00.000-08:00

hmm...went to work~..mm...working wif a staff called huiling n e supervisor..eve...(fat ass) oops.z..mm..anywayz..enjoyed working wif huilingz..she very outgoing..ahha she even called me..ningshi(the so called god mum) de bao bei...omg..haha..but huiling going lot1 lo...hmmx...sia larhx...realli wish to befriend her sia...mm..haha c hw...if can..go get her contact n kip in contact wif her :P

2005-01-12T22:57:00.000-08:00

hmm..went for ball todayz..wah seh...cant play like last time ler...rusty like hell sia...alamakz...but..bo bian...haf to workz...wahaha..anyway..enjoyed it todayz :)

2005-01-11T23:59:00.000-08:00

mm...i have make up my mind...wahaha...mm...went to work...but took a cab there..damn...it was ard $5.50...wah liew...hard earn $ seh...then reach there n was quite frightened...coz i dunch even noe a staff there...oh yahx...i noe one...ning shi...wahaha..the supervisor there call her my god mum...mm...if its real...i wunch mind either...shes realli like a mum to me when workingz..hmmx..anwyayz..it wasnt as buzy as wad i tink...mm..quite like e envioronment there too..so..dunch tink i going to look for otehr jobs or wad ler..

2005-01-09T23:58:00.000-08:00

hmm...e day begin wif e dream.. tt i did nt want..hmm..shall nt mention e draem here...went to haf breakfast wif mcken then....then went to his hoz n read the new paper tt i bought for todayz...n went to arcade be4 meeting bao for seoul...wellx..nt a bad trip till night...afta tt...went to watch punggol n paya lebar de match...whoo...lost...if im nt wrong~...hmx...then we played a few half corut matches...whao...FUN sehx..okok...anywayz...shit sia...i tink i still lack some shit tok skills...mmm...hwahahahaha...im gonna be who i am...nt gonna change for anyonez who aint in e gang....i only live for myself...n of cosh...e gang~ :)

2005-01-06T03:01:00.000-08:00

hmm...worked for 16 hrs todayz...to 2am..long day...haha was tinking abt sth...haha i wished tt my gf would call me n ask where m i..ask me take care those stuff...haha...but...hp nv ring..sehz...coz no gf..wahahahaha..haiz..nt even a sms frm friens sehx...sianning e whole dayz...haha ai seh..wheres e one i love...muahaha..relationship ish a game...a game tt either one of e party get cheated in e end...so wad...play it man...if ur mouth ish sweet...u look handsome...suave...cool...wadeva...anyway tt u can win a girl's heart..n be e winner all e wayz..but too bad...im all e opp. of this...tts y i lost...n lost utterly...damn it~..gonna work lata...at 10am...slping soon...cya..

2005-01-03T23:59:00.000-08:00

yawnz...tired seh..went to workz...hmm today de time passes quite fast de..:)

2005-01-01T23:05:00.000-08:00

wah lan ehx...ki siao liao larhx...tok to fauzi abt girl ting...then thot of sth..kaox..du lan til i take e penknife stab e cardboard alot of times seh...then zhi tao destroy e cardboard till lan diaoz...wah lanx...haiz..nvm..hmmx..yeapx..nt in a good mood...until yong(manager) send a fax over n sae...closing e shop at 8pm..sia...high...then...saw lotsa bitches...yea....then went wif mcken n baboon to marina square..went there...bought a clothes...then makan..then went back to esplanade...sia larhx...fauzi...wif e girl liaox...so fast seh...man of e match...went home bath n went to mcken hoz...tok awhile...he wanna slp...ai seh...ah fat ish like tt one,...muahahahahha..mm..then happened to read some issues of teenage in mcken's hoz...alamak...all e sex n stuff...girl giving in..to sex..wah lan ehx...e girl machiam no brain like tt...haiyoz...then i came to a conclusionz...ppl under 20...no love involved...only physical...ppl under 40...marry n divorce afta 40...call chicken..afta 60...CPF gone..all gone to chicken..yawnz..tink tis ish longest entry i ever haf...cool seh...

sianx sia...suddenly haf e urge to go n play bball...n vent out everything inside me seh...when will i haf e time...everybody's goign back sch...sian sia...left few of us..tell u wad peeps...those who cheated on me...betray me...whahahaha...i be frank sia...SHIT U~!n...look there manx...FUCK OFF

2004-12-28T21:23:00.000-08:00

had a conference till 3.30am yest...then slept for 4++ hrs...woke up n went to work...god..was damn tired manz..hahahaz...i was abt to slp when i step into e shopz...lucky e coffee let me stayed a wake a few hrs more...mm...damn..i haf been relying on coffee lately...hope nth will happen to me...anywayz..working tml at night...so i guess..i will be able to haf a gd slp be4 im off to work tmlz...

2004-12-26T08:11:00.000-08:00

work palce gt lotsa stuff happen...jialat...haiz..nb.donno y sehx...treat them as friens...they treat me like shit...fuck u~...thank god for letting me noe u all~ :)

2004-12-24T21:03:00.000-08:00

hmmx...work for todayz...haha...fauzi heart broken sehz...saw his eyes..red...n wateryz..wunch tell u all wad happen anywayz..hahaz...yeapx...time for todayz pass quite quickly during workz...oh yeapX!~...boss treat long john some more...hahaha thank him sehz...reach home ler...lamingz...hope tml will be a short dayz...ahha..merry chirstmas to mez~ :)

2004-12-18T23:02:00.000-08:00

hmm...went for match...led them in first 2 quaters...but in e end...lose by 4 pts...haiz..i duwnan let e others sae tt..punggol will lsoe wif out zhua per...n ah lao's words come to my mind...if theres no contribution to team..u might as well stay in e bench..nw i understand e words...i truly understands..~ we muz win~!!~!~ the next two rounds....im gonna get a higher grade frm wong

2004-12-18T13:02:00.000-08:00

haiz...bad day todayz..having match lata...donno whther i working nt...some idiot change my timingz..damn him..hmm...arg...then gay took away 4 hrs of my working time...nw...earn little only..haiz..then had a little misunderstanding wif a frienz..haiyo..wad a nice day to begin wif~ :)

2004-12-15T08:51:00.000-08:00

we won...but din performed wellz...went to cc...play...n quarreled...went to eat...then go home

2004-12-11T22:08:00.000-08:00

hmmx...went to work this morningz...damn tired...bth...was quite slack this morning...then afta tt lee came...haf to do stuff again...damn him tt tissue king...bth...hmm..afta tt went for match...arg...although we won...but i dunch haf confidence in myself...as a result...nt even half of my standard ish seen..haix...hmm...then...came home...n i suddenly remembered ster's mum's bbq...thenz dunch haf e mood to go...pangseh francis they all...felt bad nw...but donno wad to do...

2004-12-10T23:01:00.000-08:00

haha...went to play ball todayz...totally lost touch...how am i going to handle tml de match...whee...chalet was alright...although abit buay song at times...but..overall..quite fun ba....hmmz...tml match ler...wish me luckx...somemore tml morning gt work

2004-12-05T00:42:00.000-08:00

yawnz...juz finish chatting on phonez...mm..had training todayz...quite tired..btu refuse to slpz...donnno y larhx...this ish happening to me nwadasdy...i hope my body dunch freak up~

2004-12-04T23:18:00.000-08:00

whooz...went to e sinseh againz...n guess wad he sae...haha he sae tt i dunch nid to go back anymore!~..yay!~...but...haf to massage e ankle when im at home larhx...liew...so ma fan...mm...hope my back can fully recover so i can play without worries...shiok shiok!~

2004-12-02T23:59:00.000-08:00

yawanz...went to find jobs...ended up nt working for e one we found....then went to hougang mall to play daytona...liew..got a last...sianx...hmmz..then went to CC to listen to lao de formation...aiya...as usual larhx...mm..sianx...y r there such ppl...haiz...

2004-11-30T23:59:00.000-08:00

mmm...went to safra to chop passport then on e wayz...saw a BMW broke down..then e policeman helped e owner n push it to a side of e road then went back to hougangz...went to mac then saw CW...hahaha...went to corut...kaox...played like...sai ar...liew...worse in my life...hallehlujah....then played sort of one on one wif kent n baboon...fun...discovered e footsteps...heeeheehee...my stock will rise!~

2004-11-27T22:53:00.000-08:00

hmm...went to another sinseh in toa payoh...i tink hes realli a pro...but bad news frm him..he sae tt im injured for too long...den e donno wad shit haf harden n haf to go back againz...mm...kao..total will be $40..chor~haiz..a small quarrel started juz nw...btwn me n family...afta i tell them abt e tingz...but i din tell them abt e $$ so...tt means i haf to save for e stuff...kaoz..hols sux...alot of ting to pay off~...mm..hope next week ish e last appointment

2004-11-24T22:56:00.000-08:00

mmm...played bball this morning afta tonningz..hmm feelings gd..then went queensawyz...saw some things ~:P hehehe...then came back to cc...morning de feeling nt there ler...played like shit..liew..hmmz..yeaz...n nw my ankle hurts more than usual...hope tt its fine

2004-11-23T22:17:00.000-08:00

m..went to e sinseh...another one..in AMK...he sae i hurt e bonez...then he sae push back elr...donno larhx...hahaha...went back to lamez...then went homez..slept in e bus...woke up when i reached e interchange n took bus home~

2004-11-22T23:59:00.000-08:00

shiok...won 2 rounds...long time dunch haf this pia de feel ler...hmmx...tiring day though

2004-11-21T12:36:00.000-08:00

yawnz...sianx...nw left ankle.....nb...thank u ar...hmmz...nth larh...playing ball lata...hmmx...been playing for 3 straight dayx..like no more exams like tt...shiok~

2004-11-16T23:59:00.000-08:00

mm..tday de history was a chaos...source base qn was a stranger to me...total stranger...played ball for a while...whoo..love e feelingz ~:)

2004-11-11T22:02:00.000-08:00

after tt day of playing ballz, i tink my ankle cant endure some more ler...it seems to haf a slight pain n a numb feeling when im walkingz...kaox..wads happening to it~ mm hope Os get over faster so i can go visit a sinseh...haix..

2004-11-09T22:49:00.000-08:00

hmm...tml gt geog n im playing ball todayz...hahahaa but i love todayz...enjoyed playingz...but i still tink i lacked sometingz...hmmz..gt a bruise on my knee..liew...wonder whens e bruise going off..

din had dinner todayz...hmm...tink im gonna solve this 2pid problem wif a cup of milo lata...hmmx..alrightz...signing off nw...cya ~

2004-11-07T12:14:00.000-08:00

mm..Os...hope nth goes wrongz n hope e examiner marking my papers would care less abt accuracy...damnz...although i dunch belive in anythingz...hehez...hope realli theres some god up there hu can help mez...everything went fine these few dayx..mm...hahaha....

2004-11-04T23:52:00.000-08:00

hmm nw i gt e ans...if we dunch compare ourselves with others..u will feel tt e world ish fair...hahahahhaa YEA!~ WORLD ISH FAIR

2004-11-03T12:15:00.000-08:00

today de maths...isnt wad i expected it to bez...mm...tink will haf no problem if theres nt realli a serious careless mistakes...hmmx..hope i can acheive a A1 for both maths...so as to cover up other subjects...

2004-11-01T23:15:00.000-08:00

wanna slp...cant slp in e hall..damnx..nwadyas siao liao larhx...i din even noe i fell aslp afta i close my eyes for a whilez...dunch haf e feel...wonder y~ kaox...

leg...getting serious...bend abit i can feel e freaking pull on e thigh...n anklez nt in gd conditionz...liew...hope wad uncle sae isnt true on my leg...scary...haiz...

2004-10-31T12:23:00.000-08:00

wonder y...haha..i juz agree to world ish unfair...or issit far to u in other ways? mmm..

2004-10-28T23:22:00.000-07:00

mm..always like tt when toking to dad sia...when he object to sth tt i toking..he will give a squashed eyebrow n used a nt happy tone to tok to me when i tok to him nicely...dor...wonder y larhx..then i will feel bu shuang...

mmm tried study at home..however..i hate e envioronment...everything juz seems so distracting...hate it...nth got into my head...oh manz...

everything seems fine be4 yest...nw...lotsa stuff happened...juz coz of a tiny winni ting...mmm...maybe it means alot to him...but as a matter of fact...coz of my freaking playing style...hes gone for a time beingz...mm...a gd frien of mine ish gone in other words..

2004-10-27T23:05:00.000-07:00

mm...come home straight awya teo nag...wo bu zhi dao...play ball...play dao nt happy..mmmm..bu zhi daoz..mood very lousyz...wo bu zhi dao larhx...

2004-10-26T23:51:00.000-07:00

m..mm..mmm...mmmm...too much tings to hold...pressures great...feel like collaspingz...anybody to share my woes? everything isnt e past...nt as wad i expected my life would be...everything juz seems to change in one blink of eyes...so nw i ask...ish this life?

studied at cc...played abit of ball...too many ppl...can only play afta 1hr...then cc off lights ler...soz..touch ball only then no more loz..haiz...lalalaz...had a chat wif e grpz...nt a gd onze though...everythings reminded..wondering whens e time she will be erased...

2004-10-25T23:56:00.000-07:00

todayz...played ball for a while...yest de blue black become bigger ler...kaox...haf difficulty washing face...fuck larhx... nvm larhx..i deserve it...haha haf to thank him oso...let me wake up frm my dreams...

mm...studied abit...then become very du lanz...cant do my maths...tml gonna revise my physcis again n do TYS...hope i got no problem wif Os...god bless me...

i love u~! lala...i love u oso..n i love u three..muahahahahahhahahahaha

sundayz

2004-10-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

hmm...went to cc..meant to be studyz...but played bball be4 going upz...studied abit then go down n played ball againz...muahahaha...then went back to study againz...finally comletetd my sci...nw ish another revision for sci be4 i start on others...mm...hope i can pass everything

tt guy knock my head wif his elbow when hes shooting...tink i deseerve it ba...i bend dwn n let him hit de..muahaha..donno larhx...tink i siao alreadyz...lala...tts todayz

hmm

2004-10-23T22:40:00.000-07:00

hmmz.. sianx...life ish stressful~~~dono larhx...hmm suddenly gian for a gf...butz...donno larhx...dunch tink anybody will wan me...muahahaha..so always drop off e idea but only can tinkz...yea...

went to cc to studyz..managed to finsh revising my chemz...big effort...liewz...

mm...wunch call u again ler..muahahaha dunch worry~ dunwanna disturb u~

m

2004-10-23T14:56:00.000-07:00

phew...nice weatherz...but cant play ballz...xing li bu kuai ler...so actually...wanted to playz...butz...dunch tink can ler...this kinda weatehr...play will get sick only...

mm..meeting gori lata to studyz..wonder wad today will be likez...hope i can finish tings tt i wanna complete baz...muahahaha...haiz...

haiz

2004-10-22T23:35:00.001-07:00

hmmzx...wads happening to me? dunch understand..mm keep physcoing my self abt some stuff...wish it wunch happenz...

anywayz...had a nice time playing ball todayz...feeling of victory~! yeS!~

haiz

2004-10-22T23:35:00.000-07:00

hmmzx...wads happening to me? dunch understand..mm keep physcoing my self abt some stuff...wish it wunch happenz...

anywayz...had a nice time playing ball todayz...feeling of victory~! yeS!~

darn

2004-10-17T23:32:00.000-07:00

mm...went to cc to study...ended up playing ballz...uncle wong told me to go find e sinseh regarding my leg...hmmx...maybe i will...if i haf e timez...n someone to accompany me there...muahahaz...hope tt nth serious will happen to itz...

mm

2004-10-16T01:17:00.000-07:00

everythign will go well as planned...if i haf e determinationz...but...i tink...i still lack of it in studies...i nid someone close...realli someone close...hu noes wad im tinkingz...hu can support me in my mental part..n oso..make me feel tt im free of worries ...liewz..muahahahaha..nvm larhx...dere wunch be someonez..haf to depend on myself...i haf to struggle this trhuz....yea...tts e only plan tt works..mm..to my self...jiayou~!~....as long as i can take it...i will~ endurance...till i become crazy...

overslept

2004-10-14T23:59:00.000-07:00

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....nth to sae...byebye

oh...

2004-10-14T00:29:00.000-07:00

damnz..i discovered sth...my back ish aching again...n my thighs too...damnz...dunch tell me my old injuries coming backz...godz...

meaningful

2004-10-13T23:53:00.000-07:00

frien told me sth in sch todayz...he said tt...even if theres a girl..hu haf e qualities u wan...who ish damn chio...n shes my frien...would she wan me nt?? muahahahaha...i thot abt it for a moment..n i got e ans...muahaha..which ish no...cool man...

shiok

2004-10-09T23:21:00.000-07:00

hmm..played bball wif MR Right Hand...god...i admit tt he realli can jump n hang abit...n hes tall too...damnz...hmm although we had a losing streak playing wif themz...but its fun larhx...coz they r somebody who can provide us a challenge...

had dinner n im home~

whoohoo

2004-10-09T07:04:00.000-07:00

i graduated!~...yea...but i will miss sec sch life...damnz..hahaha...had graduation ceremony yest night...whoo~...i can sae tt this dayz...haf finally arrived....

went to Kbox afta tt...abit the chor...$27...but oki larhx...quite enjoyed it...then went for pool for abt an hour...then went to kopitiam to haf my breakfast...n i went home...getting on to e first busz(136) of e dayz.....

heeheehee...i love wearing shirts nw

stress out...

2004-10-07T23:17:00.000-07:00

too many for me to study...to many things i dunonz....A maths was sucking...fuck...cant fuck ard anymore...

shiok

2004-10-06T22:56:00.000-07:00

hmm..had bball juz nw...wah...damn tired...donno y...lungs going to burst...arg...damnz..train~!

2004-10-05T22:41:00.000-07:00

finished sch ard 4.30...damnz..forced to stay back...but nvm larhx...it make me realise something...which ishz...i got alot difficulty doing A maths...damn itz...arg...

reached homez n sleep my way thru...going to slp nw too..cya

tired

2004-10-04T23:44:00.000-07:00

slept at 1am yest...but i managed to stay awake in sch...

went to compass pt to do my history homework n saw this cedar girl..shes nt sae those kinda very dua chio bu...but she haf e features i likez..muahaha..but she doesnt leave me any good impression...hmmx..yea...n went for tuition ler